Merry Yuletide to all! Today is the darkest day of the year, but there is bright sunshine glinting off sparkling snow outside my window. It is appropriately cold for this day when we are least warmed by the sun; the window thermometer said 8F this morning (that's -13C), and this was at almost 9 a.m.
Before kids, I used to have a party every Yule, where friends would gather for dinner and drink, and everyone would bring a candle. We would cast a circle, then each person would state her intention to bring light back to one part of their lives, and would light her candle, each of us holding that intention with her. People could explain their situation in as much or as little detail as they wanted. We would invite people from different parts of our lives, and sometimes this would be the only time guests saw each other each year. It was a precious ritual to me, and one that I miss. With toddlers, it's hard to have a grownup party. In a few years they can participate, and we can find a way to make it kid-friendly, but now it would just be chaotic, so it has slipped off our calendar. It's also just hard when you have to work on the day of the holiday, with all the Christmas craziness going on all around. This year we're doing even worse than last; I'm sick, Rhys is in New Jersey working, the house is a mess, and dinner will be leftovers. But still I will light a solitary candle tonight and dream the dark lightened.
Since I don't have my warm, home candlelit circle, I'll cast my intention here. Please use the comments to cast your own intention.
As the light returns, may it bring with it confidence and clarity for my work in the world, and may I find my worth in every moment of mothering, even the ones where I am not my hopeful vision of myself as a parent, where I fall down and make mistakes. May the coming light remind me that I bring something of perfect worth and value to the world. May I find a path that feeds my soul and my family, and may I come closer to the ever-elusive balanced life I seek.
By the will of all, and may it harm none, so mote it be.
What darkness will you ask the coming sun to light?
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